amaSi araferia gasakviri, saocari is aris, rom cota xnis Semdeg madlierebis werili miviRe tvardovskisagan, romelic zustad igive sityvebiT msayvedurobda imis Taobaze, rom aseT simSvenieres joxs vuwodeb. kidev iciT, ra maxsovs: batoni konstantine da tvardovski gvian Ramemde seirnobdnen zRvis napirze. literaturaze saubrobdnen. me, ra Tqma unda, xmas ar viRebdi, magram yovel maT sityvas vylapavdi. baton konstantines saqarTveloSi eTayvanebodnen ara marto mwerlebi, am siyvarulis mowmeebi Tqven da sania brZandebiT. gaxsovT, Cemi manqaniT Tbilisidan gulrifSSi mimyavdiT? maSin Cven rikoTis uReltexilze restoran `wevaSi~ gavCerdiT... roca restornis direqtorma Seityo, rom mas aseTi sapativcemulo stumari hyavs, fulis gamorTmeva ar undoda. man madloba gadauxada baton konstantines misi wignebisaTvis, me darwmunebuli var, rom mas wakiTxuli aqvs isini. baton konstantineze usasrulod SeiZleba gaxseneba. me da mTeli Cemi Semoqmedeba did valSia masTan, magram axla me ar minda borotad gamoviyeno Tqveni didsulovneba da moTmineba. gmadlobT, rom momeciT saSualeba, gamexsenebina zogi ram baton konstantineze, Tundac umniSvnelo, magram iseTi adamianebis cxovrebaSi, rogoric is iyo, umniSvnelo wuTebi ar arsebobs. roca moskovSi Camovdiodi, igi mekiTxeboda: _ rodis Camoxvedi, nodar? _ guSin! _ unda aRvniSnoT, Zvirfaso. da mec `vcxaddebodi~, movdiodi TqvenTan stumrad da mas Tavisi stumarTmoyvareobiT SeeZlo daeCrdila nebismieri qarTvelis stumarTmoyvareoba da Tu nebas momcemT, me yovelTvis `gamovcxaddebi~, rameTu man dedamiwaze datova saqarTvelos siyvarulis uzarmazari koconi da gvianderZa, rom yovelma CvenTaganma zogjer SeSa unda SevukeToT am kocons, raTa igi ar daiferflos ukuniTi ukunisamde. uRrmesi pativiscemiT n. dumbaZe 31. 3. 80 Tbilisi. 202 sufTa qviSa erTxel Cvens ezoSi Cxubi moxda. axalgazrdebi Cxubobdnen, erT-erTi maTgani Cems sadarbazoSi cxovrobda. yvirilze misi Zmac CemsaviT aivanze gamovida da wuTiTac ar dafiqrebula, kibeze daeSva, misaxmareblad gavarda... cota xnis mere moCxubrebi gaaSveles. jer kidev aRelvebuli Zmebi nela amodiodnen kibeze. maSin ufros Zmas vuTxari: `gagego mainc, raSi iyo saqme, vin mtyuani iyo da vin _ marTali...~ `sad mqonda magisi dro, _ mipasuxa, _ roca Zma Sav dReSia, laparaki ki ara, daxmarebaa saWiro~. ra Tqma unda, Taviseburi magaliTia, magram es naTesaobis grZnoba, Cemi azriT, adamianis Sinagani sindisiT aris nasazrdoebi, sindisi ki xSirad aseT moulodnel, gauTvaliswineblad mravalgvar formebSi mJRavndeba. mere, roca yvelaferSi gaerkva, ufrosi Zma, cxadia, Wkuas aswavlida umcross, magram gansacdelisas is uyoymanod daicva. sindisi, Rirseba, ra ucnauri cnebebia? amboben, cxovelebs sindisi ar aqvTo. me ki mgonia, araa ase. yovel suldgmuls aqvs sindisi. qarTvelebi amboben: `kargi cxeni maTraxs ar dairtyamso~. da mainc, Tumca iqneb sakuTar Tavsac vewinaaRmdegebode, vityvi: adamianis sindisis gaRviveba da aRzrda SesaZlebelia. ai, Cemi SviliSvili, magaliTad, SeiZleba mgavdes saxiT, moZraobiT, emociebiT, magram saqcieliT is me ar memgvaneba, Tu mas ar aRvzrdi, anda, rac arsebiTad igivea, Cems xsovnas ar davutoveb. albaT swored sulis aRzrdis saxeliT vlaparakobT Cven dRes zneobaze, mamaTagan miRebul sulier memkvidreobaze, romelic Svilebs, STamomavlebs gvinda gadavceT. adamianis guli, misi suli bunebis yvelaze srulyofili qmnilebaa. da tyuilad ar amtkicebs Cemi romanis _ `maradisobis kanonis~ gmiri baCana ramiSvili: `...adamianis suli gacilebiT ufro mZimea, vidre sxeuli, imdenad mZime, rom erT adamians misi tareba ar SeuZlia. amitom vidre cocxlebi varT, erTmaneTs xeli unda SevaSveloT da vecadoT, rogorme ukvdavvyoT erTmaneTis suli; Tqven Cemi, me sxvisi, sxvam sxvisi da ase dausabamod, rameTu im sxvisi gardacvalebis Semdeg ar davobldeT da martoni ar davrCeT am qveyanaze...~ 203 adamianSi Zlieria TviTgadarCenis Tandayolili instinqti, da xSirad moraluri arCevanis winaSe mdgari, is am instinqtis morCilia, aba, dafiqrdiT, ra xSirad vcdilobT, gavamarTloT Cven iseTi saqcieli, rogorsac sxvas arasodes ar vapatiebdiT; ra xSirad vafarebT Tavs sanaxevro simarTlis buruss, maSin, roca dauyovnebliv vamxeldiT sxvis tyuils... cxovrebis WeSmariteba ki, Cans, isaa, rom ar miutevo sakuTar Tavs da miutevo moyvass, iswavlo adamianis siyvaruli, cxovrobde adamianebs Soris da cxovrobde adamianebisaTvis. rogor minda, rom yovelive keTili, mSvenieri ar gaqres, ar warixocos adamianis mexsierebidan, rogorc qviSaSi wyali! vinaidan aucilebelia momavali, kargi adamianis aRsazrdelad. da vTqvaT, ramdenad ufro mdidari iqneboda Cveni xalxi, qarTuli arqiteqturis iseT diad qmnilebaTa avtorebi rom icodes, rogoricaa nikorwminda, jvari! vis SeuZlia gviTxras, ratom ar dagvitoves am ostatebma TavianTi saxelebi? SesaZloa imitom, rom fiqrobdnen: sindisi guluxvoba ar aris, saqveynod gamoaCino... da ratomaa cnobili imave epoqis sxva, naklebad Rirebuli nawarmoebebis SemqmnelTa saxelebi? keTili saqmis keTeba kacisaTvis sulieri moTxovnilebaa. aq igi gamorCenas ar moelis, xolo Tu mainc moelis, ese igi, farisevlobs _ sakuTari Tavis winaSe, adamianebis winaSe. ai, magaliTad, niWier msaxiobs an mwerals uyvars aplodismentebi, pativi, uxaria, rom mis Semoqmedebas afaseben, magram is marto warmatebisTvis rodi `iklavs Tavs~ _ sindisi ar aZlevs nebas uaresad iTamaSos, uaresad weros. da Cveni valia, Rirsebisamebr mivagoT maT. gavufrTxildeT xsovnas. sindisi gmirobasa hgavs. magram gmirad me imas ar vTvli, visac arafrisa ar eSinia da baqibuqobs. gaxsovT, jer kidev maiakovski ambobda, vinc mudam gamWvirvalea, is ubralod briyvia. gmirobad SenTvis da Seni xalxisaTvis aucilebeli saqmis aRsasruleblad SiSis daTrgunva mimaCnia, dae, iyos es Zneli da araviTari piraduli sargebloba ar hqondes, magram sindisi gvkarnaxobs, swored ase moiqce da ara sxvanairad. axla sxva vTqvaT. yvelam viciT, rom dakisrebuli saqme mTeli pasuxismgeblobiT unda Sesruldes. es Cemi cxovrebis normaa. magram Tu viRacis upasuxismgeblobis gamo droulad ver aiRes mosavali, ver aaSenes sacxovrebeli saxli, ver gaiyvanes 204 magistrali?.. am SemTxvevaSi, me mgoni, unda vilaparakoT ara mxolod aguris, aramed sindisis ukmarisobazec. arsebobs sazogadoebrivi yofis garkveuli normebi, romlebsac TiToeuli CvenTagani iTvaliswinebs. magram, garda amisa, TiToeuls unda gvqondes Cveni qmedebis mudmivad warmmarTavi, sakuTari, Sinagani disciplinac. ai, swored es Sinagani disciplinaa, Cemi azriT, sindisi da upirveles yovlisa, amas unda mivaqcioT yuradReba axalgazrda Taobis aRzrdisas. Taobebi erTmaneTs cvlian, magram sanam cocxlebi varT, aucileblad unda SevumuSavoT adamianebs Sinagani disciplina, Torem TviT es cneba axalgazrdobas amorfuli moeCveneba. da maSin axalgazrda adamianebi SeiZleba kalapotidan amovardnen, napirebi gadmolaxon. ki, mdinaris adideba vertmfrenidan kargi sanaxavia, magram miwaze es tragediaa, wylis nakads Tan miaqvs xeebi, saxlebi, ixoceba xalxi... `kalapotSi yofna~ niSnavs sanTeliviT iwvode adamianebisaTvis, sruli SegnebiT ibrZode sakuTari idealebisaTvis. cxovreba rTulia da rac ar unda virwmunebdeT Tavs, rom SeiZleba yvelafers ufro iolad, martivad moekido, amaod Cagvivlis cda. metismetad bevr sakiTxs wamoWris dro, metismetad sariskoa am sakiTxebisaTvis wayrueba. da me ver warmomidgenia Cemi Tanamedrove, sabWoTa adamiani ukeTuri, gulgrili. amitom yovel Cems gmirSi, upirvelesad, am `RvTaebriv naperwkals~ veZeb _ mgrZnobiarobas, tkivils usamarTlobis, sicruis mimarT. me maRelvebs pirovnebis Camoyalibebis, aRzrdis problema, da yvela Cemi gmiri, rogorc wesi, im asakisaa, roca adamians erT mxarze angelozi uzis, meoreze _ eSmaki. vin gaimarjvebs, romels miendoba igi?.. mravali wlis win Jurnal `druJba narodovis~ redaqciaSi mivitane `me vxedav mzis~ xelnaweri. nawarmoebSi erTi aseTi epizodia: gogo da biWi, xatia da sosoia mezobel sofelSi tansacmlis purze gadasacvlelad midian. omis mZime, mSieri wlebia. yvelas uWirs. da glexkaci, babilo, romelic bavSvebs Rames TavisTan gaaTevinebs, diliT ufasod aZlevs maT mTel tomara purs. redaqtori qali iyo, man xelnaweri waikiTxa da miTxra: `nodar vladimeroviC, vin dagijerebT, rom glexma ase muqTad gasca puri?~ maxsovs, kiTxvam Semacbuna: msgavs 205 problemaze ar mifiqria, me vicodi, rom adamianuri sindisis karnaxiT babilos unda gaeyo lukma bavSvebisaTvis, bolos da bolos, me mindoda, rom is ase moqceuliyo da amitom davwere es epizodi. redaqtors vupasuxe: `ar vici, iqneb arc damijeron... magram Tu erTi kaci mainc damijerebs, es saocrad kargi iqneba~. moTxroba daibeWda. bevri werili miviRe da urwmuno arc erTis avtori ar aRmoCnda. mkiTxveli nemcovi nawyenia, radgan megobrebma mas gasaWirSi zurgi Seaqcies. is ambobs, rom adamianebze guli gautyda. me mesmis es situacia. CemTvisac bevrs Semouqcevia zurgi, naTesavebsac ki, iyo aseTi wlebi. Tumca mere is xalxi gons movida... magram sxvebic iyvnen, nacnobebi Tu ucnobebi, vinc damexmara, me samudamod valSi var maT winaSe, ara imitom, rom isini TavianT lukmas miyofdnen da, xatovnad rom vTqvaT, SimSiliT sikvdilisagan micavdnen, aramed imitom, rom maT adamianuri sikeTis, patiosnebis, uangarobis rwmena SeminarCunes. warmoidgineT, TiToeul maTgans rom eangariSa da davTarSi Caewera, nodar dumbaZes miveci amdeni da amdeni puri, amdeni marili... me albaT ver gavizrdebodi. dResac adamianebs Soris, adamianebTan vcxovrob, miyvars isini da rac ki ram aris CemSi, rogorc kacsa da moqalaqeSi, maT mier, Cemi Tanamemamuleebis mieraa Canergili. sindisi garkveulwilad zneobaa. magram meeWveba, amaSi davajero mesame werilis avtori i. simonovskaia, ramdenadac igi ver arCevs iseT kategoriebs, rogoricaa sindisi, Rirseba. unda gamovtyde, rom cxovrebisadmi Cemeburi damokidebuleba maqvs, ar miyvars, ar mWirdeba komforti, Cemi ojaxic ubraloebas mivaCvie, mimaCnia, rom cxovrebis mizani materialuri keTildReoba ar aris, is mxolod saSualebaa, formaa misi. magram, amave dros, es ar niSnavs imas, rom me almacerad vuyureb adamianebs, visTvisac nivTebs didi mniSvneloba aqvs. mraval SesaniSnav adamians vicnob, romelTac, nivTebis siyvarulis gamo niWi, sikeTe, samarTlianoba ar akldebaT. saqme isaa, rom maT kargad ician: nivTebi arsebobs CvenTvis da ara Cven nivTebisaTvis, magram Tu nivTebis siyvaruli fetiSizmad, spekulaciad gadagvardeba, Tu kaci yvelafers kisrulobs, raTa jinsis Sarvali da Zvirfasi qurqi iyidos, an udardelad gaataros dro zRvispiras, zneobaze laparakic zedmetia. SeiZleba 206 Semomedavon, rom cxovrebis biologiuri moZraoba zneobaze, sindisze araa damokidebuli, rom mas Tavisi kanonebi aqvs da sicocxlis procesi SeuCerebelia, amdenad ki, Cveni msjelobac fuWia... diax, asea, magram kacobriobis cxovreba mudmiv koreqtirebas saWiroebs. unamuso adamianebis mospoba ar SeiZleba. gaixseneT biblia, literaturuli TvalsazrisiT is kacobriobis istoriaa. hoda, roca sodomisa da gomoris mcxovreblebma zneobrivi saxe dakarges, RmerTebma gaanadgures es qalaqebi. adamianebi ki zeciT movlenili cecxliT daanacres... kacobriobis ganviTarebas meored noes kidobanSi daedo saTave. noe, safiqrebelia, wesieri kaci iyo, magram TviT RmerTmac ver Seatyo mis erT-erT vaJs, qams, ukeTureba... da kvlav minda xazgasmiT vTqva: adamianSi sindisi SeiZleba gaRvivdes. me yuradRebiT vukvirdebi adamianebs, veZeb maTSi sinaTles, simarTles, rac Semdgom Cemi gmirebis dvritad iqceva. darwmunebuli var, aseTi adamianebis gareSe kacobrioba aqamde ver moaRwevda, xolo Tu moaRwevda, ramdenime `sodomi da gomori~ iqneboda saWiro. modidebuli wyali ar SeiZleba ar aimRvres. magram dro gadis, yvelaferi Tavis adgils ubrundeba, wyali iwmindeba da gamWvirvale Cndeba is sufTa qviSa, romelzec xalxi brZnulad ambobs: `wyalni wavlen da wamovlen, qviSani darCebiano...~ da marTali iyo didi poeti daviT guramiSvili, roca ambobda: `bedi mas hqvian, vinc rom ar mokvda, suliT cxondao~. 207
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